Wednesday, January 24, 2018

A New Toilet for my Birthday


Millions of women around the world once again marched, on the anniversary of Trump’s inauguration, to denounce the damage the Trump administration is doing to all of us. The next day, the Dems caved and voted to open the government for business without the commitment of specific legislation to protect the DACA “Dreamers” from being deported in March. What did they get instead? A “promise” by Mitch McConnell to have “hearings” on the issue.

I was supposed to go to the march in Santa Fe, a much less dramatic excursion than my trip to Washington D.C. last year, but a relief to not have to get on a plane. Then it snowed (hallelujah, we’re in a drought), my partner in arms Terri was too sick to venture into the cold, and then the “should I stay or should I go” dilemma arose. The answer to my question got sucked into the personal is political: is it going to make one iota of difference in anyone’s life except my own if I do or don’t go to the march in Santa Fe (millions marching and Trump is still here and the Dems are cowards)? The answer was obviously that it wouldn’t, which has never before stopped me from doing all kinds of ultimately futile things, but this time I stayed home and stewed.

I stewed because things are worse today than a year ago. Every single cabinet appointee is doing her/his best to destroy the mission of the agency they rule. That’s because libertarians don’t believe in any government regulation and oversight of corporate profiteering or protection of peoples lives and the planet we inhabit unless it’s to brutalize the “other” with bombs or the police (which pretty much sums up the agenda of the Republican Party).

I stewed because none of us really know what to do to stop this terror: support impeachment, which ain’t going to happen with the Repubs in power. Put all our energy into gaining Democratic seats in the House so we do have the votes to start the impeachment process but probably not to impeach? Somehow figure out how to get those seats filled with Bernie-like Dems who will actually talk about inequality and Black Lives Matter and the military industrial complex? Wait for Mueller to actually come up with a criminal charge?

I stewed because the next day was my birthday and because I’d planned on going to the march in Santa Fe I hadn’t planned on going anywhere to celebrate—or mourn—my day of birth. And I’d arranged to have my neighbor come help me install a new toilet because that was when he was available. So at the last minute, to avoid a total decline into despair, I had to call my kids and get them to meet me for lunch in Santa Fe, which they did and which was very nice, eating tapas. Then I had to come straight home and install my toilet, which also was very nice because he did a good job and no water was spilled on my wood floor. 



So I made it through another anxious birthday tied to another anxious year of overwhelming tsuris (that’s grief and strife and aggravation and trouble for the non-Yiddish speakers). I know there are many people out there doing everything in their power to prevent another year of this. I’ll try to do my best as well and not think about another birthday and futility and despair. Wish me luck.

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